Well
touché there, so kindly hear me out:
1. So far I have worked my way up one rabbit hole, by acquiring 3 allegedly TOTL SS amps (Cen.Grand Silver Fox, Niimbus, Pathos InPol Ear) all of which drive the Susvara pretty well to my ears... And, yet as strange this might sound, I have been somewhat surprised on occasion to catch myself "envying" an Amp called "Envy with the 300b Elrog tubes," without having ever even seen one in person, or made a conscious effort to "want," talk less of "audition" one!
2. As crazy as 1. might sound, I have been on head-fi and in this hobby long enough to realize that in the land of Audio Nervosa, "crazy" never stops working, but only specializes in moving the goal-posts of satisfaction a few steps away, and further into the fog of new desires and cravings whenever one begins to think that one is finally "arriving" or reaching Audio Nirvana.
3. An yet, it is not all "doom and gloom" either. Insight # 2. above comes with its own silver-lining regarding my "envy of the envy," namely, my recognition that this "envy of the envy," is itself the name of another mirage : Today, I'd gladly welcome the idea of having an "Envy in Walnut-themed wood" with "300b Elrog tubes" in my stable to drive my Susvara and 1266 TC, but is that presence going to calm "the hunger" and rid me of "the goal-posts" or "the fog of new cravings" once and for all?:
I no longer believe that there are any cans, amps. DACS. or related audio components in existence anywhere that could ever make that happen... And yet, for the sake of my sanity, I have to step back from this last insight, go back to the drawing board, so to speak, and resume the chase of audio nirvana, acting as if "nirvana" is actually "a thing," and one that is worth pursuing with every last breath I can muster...
You could also call the above rant a summary of my experience with the Susvara, which I continue to love, and which never stops surprising me... To be continued (Maybe
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